I’ve been staring through glass doors for a while. On the other side I see a community I love. But I just needed to leave the room and breath for a while. As I open theses doors I wonder if anyone will turn to say hello, or if I’ll walk straight through the room to grab a beverage without anyone acknowledging me. I’m an introvert, so I would be ok going unnoticed. I’m not there looking for attention. I’m there to find my purpose in the community.
I’ve been debating on blogging again because I want it to be personal, open, and honest. Those seem like rare elements in a world where photographers fill their Facebook page with “Look how well I’m doing” fluff yet they are crying on the inside and struggling to provide. I never know how much to say or how much to hide.
It’s a horrible thing. It had control over many things in my life from childhood to my early 30’s. I have slowly learned to overcome it through experience, coaching, education, and the friends and family that surround me. Life has changed drastically for me over the last 3 years. I moved from Connecticut to Charleston, SC, completely changing life and business, and unexpectedly accepting a full time job.
Now after an 18 year career I feel the need to do a brain dump. I want to do my part to help make my community stronger. I’m going to get into a lot of stories that might not seem valid at first but I want you to understand that I’ve been there, where so many of you are, and I’ve learned from it. I don’t know everything. But maybe one little thing from a long conversation is all you need to take that next step.
Having left the freedom of self employment and gone to the dark side by landing a full time job, I’ve had an amazing chance to look back at everything I’ve done, what worked, what didn’t work, and what really didn’t work. So much knowledge has been handed down to me. Now it’s my turn to give back.
There is this amazing conference called Inspire Photo Retreats. I may be biased about it because I was a founding member with 8 others. It wasn’t my idea, and I also haven’t been a part in a few years. If there’s one thing I’ve learned from the retreat it is this:
Be open. Be honest. Be real. Be yourself. Be who you want to be and don’t let anyone discourage you. Do what you want to do, not what others want.
Please don’t be an introverted artist wallowing in fear. Reach out. Ask questions. Share information. Grow the community.
It’s time for you, and us, to be fearless.